So I went and started a new blog. Why, not because I don’t want to blog here, but because I guess I am embarrassed to admit some things and felt like I could sneak around and blog about them somewhere else.
I feel guilty. I feel like I have been here for 10 years and the few of you who actually read me don’t care about my weakness, my self image, my failings. Thats what blogs are for right?
So I am going to put the post I did here, and use this blog for it all.
Confessions. I turned 51 this month, and when I got on the scale I weighed more than I ever had in my life. I am disgusted.
I decided that the only way I am going to focus on losing the weight is to create a place that I can be honest, confess, and perhaps find some support of others with the same struggle.
About 10 years ago on my 40th birthday I remember going shopping and buying size 8 and size 6 suits. I was the weight that I had been almost my whole life. I never had a struggle. At some point I started to gain the weight. By May of 2003 I was up about 25. Life was stressful, I was eating out a lot, I went on weight watchers (on-line) and lost 20 in about 6 months; fast forward a few more years and its back on. I went through a divorce and the death of a child and it went back on. Since then it has crept up to where I am now 40 lb heavier than I was 10 years ago.
So the goal is to lose 30. I don’t need to be a size 6-8; a 10 would be just fine. I am 5’10” after all. Here is where I will bare my soul, weigh in, log my exercise and eating, and back to weight watchers.
Size 10 here I come!