Well part of the justification for buying my new Macbook was to blog more. That hasn’t happened as you can see. I don’t have any excuses. I have been overly stressed since “the meeting”. I have not really been able to focus on anything other than work. As of today I am trying to put that aside, and focus on what I need.
In February I made this decision to start a 10 month yoga teacher training class. Its one weekend a month and I also meet for some private sessions a couple of times a month. Lots of reading. So my focus now is on this course and how it will help to change th way I look at my life, and how I make decisions. I have met now 2 weekends, I meet weekly with my study buddy, and I find myself looking forward to those 2 intense days with 10 other people who are there for various reasons, many, like myself made the decision to take the training not to become a teacher, but to evolve.
I have to say it is one of the most empowering and positive things I have done for myself in a very long time. So maybe when I finish I might decide to use my yoga for volunteer work, or maybe I will continue my studies and at some point decide I could teach.
So today after 2 months, I am making a decision to start a consistent home practice, and to lose 30 lbs and get off my blood pressure medications (yes now I am on multiple pills thanks to “the meeting” with the pd). I want to feel better, I want to be healthy, and I want to learn to leave my job at work when I go home.
Venting here will help me with all this I am sure of it. A check in a few times a week perhaps. Some accountability.
I also enrolled in a 5 week class with Daisy for leash reactivity. It starts next Monday. SHe is not always leach reactive, but I am sure that this can help her. It will help me too. At this point anything I do other than my job helps me.