Archive for May, 2012

Solar Eclipse

Yesterday was the solar ellipse. It was erie as the shadows formed in the canyon where I live.  YOu couldn’t see the sun because it was low on the horizon at 6:00pm, and all of a sudden the shadows grew long.

I sorta feel like my life is at an eclipse now, with everything going on at work. I am not feeling any motivation lots of depression, at least I think thats what it is. Maybe its just well everything. My weight is literally dragging me down, I feel sluggish and gross. I know I can lose the 30 pounds, its just that I am not motivated.  Food has been comfort lately and for some reason that is more comforting than my body image.

The weather is getting warmer which means I am hiding out in the house more.  I really do not like warm weather.

Been playing with my iPad and iPhone a lot. Downloaded hipstamatic and thats pretty fun.  Still haven’t heard from C. She didn’t even call me for mothers day.


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A Day


Lost count of what day it is, I think its day 6 but it really doesn’t mater. I have been here more than ever these past few days, and that’s good enough for me.

23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.

I guess this applies to how I am feeling right now.  I am having a real problem with fairness, people being fair, people having compassion for others.  I have no control on how other people feel or act, I can only control how I feel or act. If I do the right then, then that counts even if I can’t get  others to do the right thing.

Jake made some yummy spinach lasagne rolls for dinner last night.  I helped a little. It was good to have company for the evening, and we had a good talk.

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Day Four

Ok, I missed a day but I am back.  The moon was beautiful, and my weekend full.  Today I chose 29:

29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen.  Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story.  If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.

With everything falling apart at the office, layoffs and just plain unfairness, I need to focus on what I want to happen.  THe budget gap will be met with things other than layoffs.

Last night I made a pot of Kale Sausage and Potato soup. It was quite good, first time I tried the recipe too.

Next weekend is Mothers day.  I have not heard from C, and don’t expect to. J and I will have a nice dinner together, it will be fine.


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Day two

I’m here!  Thats a big step.  Had a flu ay class on Theraputics of the Spine, which included 2 asana practices.  So I won’t walk today.  D is coming over soon for dinner, so I will continue to focus on 6.

I felt good, its good to learn.  I love this yoga training as I feel like I am growing in such a different direction and in such a different way than ever before.

Don’t forget to look at the moon tonight 🙂



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Day one

I found this blog with a post that had 30 things to stop doing to yourself. I decided that I needed to look at all of these. But I need to look at number 6 first.  I think this may be my downfall.

6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.

I will stop looking back, start looking forward, creating each day, not wishing it were like before.

Goal for the next 30 days  Is to post one of the 30 things each day, write a comment about it and reinforce how I will make that one thing happen.

With this I look forward to better personal rituals, lose 10 lbs, get my blood pressure dow with walking at least 5 days a week. and yoga, do my practice at least 5 days a week. Leave work at work.

I will start today!


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