Tuesday

Justs a quick note.  One of my favorite bloggers, Old Grey Poet is back posting. It was good to see. It made me want to get back to my blog. BTW anyone who reads my blog is my favorite blogger:)

I have  decided to continue to teach 1 yoga class a week.  I think even though I feel a bit to busy, it will keep my teaching more refined than if I quit and decided to come back to teaching in say a couple years.  I will be taking a sutras course 1 sunday a month starting next weekend which I am looking forward to.  I need to get on the wagon and do another sadhana.

I was looking back on some of my posts and realized many of them are fixated on losing weight.  Which I am still trying to do, I lose 5 and gain 5. right now I am on the lose side and am hoping to stay there. I have a wedding in 4 weeks, and have to buy and wear a dress. I hate dresses.

Jake got into CSUN, thank God.  So he will be commuting starting in the fall.  I just hope he can finish in 1 year.

My lump/fat diagnosis was a huge relief.  Thanks for all of you who were checking in.  

A picture of the studio where I teach.

 

 

 

It’s Fat

Thank you for checking in on me Christine and Kathy!!!  So sweet.  After 2 mammograms and 3 ultrasounds, the Surgeon and Radiologist decided the lump was a lipoma, basically fatty tissue.  I have never been so relieved.

I will update more soon.  Things are rolling along. Busy but manageable. Hugs to all.

 

Checking in

Yes, I am still here. I realized it has been months since my last post. I have let the busy-ness of life take over everything.  I now have the responsibility of the Library in addition to the IT dept.,  and I am teaching yoga.

Trying to figure out what I want to do with all this, what I want. I am spending so much time but I am not gaining much clarity.  K wants me to continue teaching yoga after April. I committed to teach until then.  I don’t think I want to continue, but realize I probably should.

Daisy had another cancer surgery, fortunately all the pathology was good. No aggressive cancers. Just hemangiomas.

I found a lump under my arm, I have had all the diagnostic tests, ultrasound and mammogram.  I have a surgery consult on Friday.

We will see.

 

January 12

Thats the end of this 40 day journey. I realized I should not keep thinking about the end, but the process, what am I gaining from doing this. How am I becoming aware and present.  I am logging my food, regardless if it is good food or bad food.

In other news C finally got her own place. Her BF asked her to move out back in September. Its actually a good thing.  I just wish she would move closer to home, she is way out near Santa Monica/West LA.  For anyone who lives in the LA area, getting across town is hell with traffic.

I haven’t put up any Christmas decorations yet.  Soon.

Image is borrowed from a posting on Facebook

 

Another 40

I was successful with my sadhana. However once it was over, I was not doing well. I gained back the 5 lbs I lost, and I am not “aware” of what I am doing.  The idea of just tracking food for 40 days didn’t cut it, I have to do a practice too. I need to do my yoga.  So my new sadhana will be do either do a practice, teach a practice or walk every day and track my food.  My goal is to get off my blood pressure medication.

So yesterday I started again, on December 3rd.  The 40 days will be finished on January 12, just a couple weeks before my birthday.  I want so bad to be on the right tract with my body and my mind as I start a new year, as I grow older. I miss doing what I used to do.  My goal will be to ski again! Its been about 6 years since I have gone downhill skiing.

I think also blogging here, on a regular basis as a check in will help me. Accountability.  I am not going to commit to everyday, but much more frequently.

Wish me luck.

 

40 Days

It’s been a while. I have been terribly busy, I suppose that I could have made time to blog. But lately it doesn’t seem like its been a priority.

On Sept 27 I decided to do a 40 day sadhana. In yoga they say it takes 40 days to create or change a habit.  I desperately needed to develop a relationship with my personal practice, I am almost done with a 500 hour yoga therapy course and have yet to actually have a good relationship with my practice. In yoga they also say you need a relationship with your teacher and your practice and yourself. In any case on November 6 I did what I set out to do. Yoga every single day.  Now my definition was either a practice at home or at a class, a meeting with my teachers, or teaching a class.

What I found was that after the 40th day I continued to either practice or walk on the days I didn’t do a yoga practice.  It worked.  So well that now I have decided to do another sadhana, adding on to my existing new practice.  I am journaling everything I put in my mouth. If I want to lose weight, I need to be conscience of what I am eating and drinking.  I started that on November 13, and will finish n December 23.

So continuing with a personal practice and exercise, and adding on the food component.  Abhyasa and Vairagya : effort and detachment. Adding something new, before taking away something.  Lets see if this works.

In other non yoga news, I think I will be taking off some time over the holidays.  Thanksgiving is already next week, and I really want to clean the house and clean out some closets before the Holiday.  I feel the need to purge.  Also get the front patio set up nicely with some potted plants now that I have the fence and some privacy!

I also need to paint that wall as the contractor had to use cement for the posts and it doesn’t  look quite right.  But it is wonderful that everyone who walks by cant look in the front windows. Also the dogs are so much quieter because they can’t see every dog in the morning and evening that is going for a walk!

I guess the best thing for me to do is to make a list of everything I want to do next week!  Oh and by the way I teach my first yoga class at a real studio tomorrow morning. Wish me luck.

Slacker

Well it has been over a month since I posted.  oops.  I really mean to get here more often, but for some reason I have been avoiding it. Writing here makes me feel better so I am not sure why it has ben so hard.

I took the day off today, as my vacation time is maxed out and I lose it. I got up early and walked with Daisy. The weather has been too ht for me to walk any other time, and the evenings don’t cool down enough until after 8 and thats a bit late as there is dinner etc to deal with and I am winding down about then.

Work has been awful. I had to lay off B, and that was just beyond stressful.  For her, but also for me.  I guess thats what happens when you are BFF’s with someone who works for you.

I still have not had any contact with C. I am considering sending another e-mail.  Just to tell her I am thinking about her and ask how she is.